. dont worry.

don't worry too much. worrying is not worth the time.

you didnt hurt me but just affected my mood. thats all.

hope what i said didnt eat you up. hope it made you understand what i feeel.

we'll see what we can do from here then. anything is possible.

we'll just have to embrace ourselves.

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i don't need this.

this feeling inside of me

this feeling i can feel

the sensation inside of me

its not okay

these pictures in my room

they're facing inside out

collaborates what i feel

its not okay

and i dont think

you'd understand this

and i dont think

you'd believe me

cause i dont need all of this

none what i would have miss

noooo

cause i dont neeed all of this

the song still not done yet.

. finally its over .

school's done.

celebrate.

got sick.

whoopeedoo.

the condition im in now maybe isnt helping our situation baby. im sorry if ive been over-sensitive and moody at times. its just i seek attention from you sometimes. and all i need is reassurance. i don't know if its bothering you but it does to me. we need to understand each other. thats all i think we need to do.

we don't need this pesky lil arguments to spoil each others mood cause i certainly dont like it.

the past week has been hell for me. late and sleepless nights. stress. datelines.

everytime when i get to seeyou is a blessing. it made my day. no matter how terrible it is.

and i wouldnt want that to change.

i know you've been having mood swings lately, but sometimes i get disappointed or hurt because you tend to say negative things. i can't help  but to swallow it. 

like i said, im different from the other guys you've dated. you've got to understand this part of me. eventhough i know you dont mean it. i'll still get hurt by it.

and i know you're different too. thats why up till now im still trying to understand every single detail of you.

remember last time i said in an entry that things are suppose to be  beautiful but a lil more carefree.

well it is now. maybe not that carefree because of my school. i hope you wont judge me from what you've seen the past month or so. im not usually like this. i want  to show you more. only if you let me.

i want to let you hear more.only if you let me. and i want the same back too.

sometimes when im disappointed or angry, i just can't find the words on how to tell you. at the same time i wouldnt want to because im afraid it might hurt you. hurting me alone i can take it but hurting you i can't. i still believe this story of us can be a much more beautiful one. we just need to find the right pen and book.

hopefully after reading this you'll understand me a lil bit more and hopefully when you call i can find the words to explain to you whatever you want to know. ill tell you the things that i dont like to avoid all this unnecessary tiffs.

the clouds above us is clearing up. so we shall dance in this balcony and NO i wont let go of you. not just yet. im still sticking to it.

. never .

still digesting those words you said. maybe you didnt mean it in the way i think it was but it hurt.

don't know whats up with me. insecurities is the problem i guess.

. false interpretations.

anyone knows where i can buy sleep?

i need one nowwwwwwwwwwwwwww

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i would like to order a 12 hour sleeping package.

to go please.

ergh. out of stock

.she's all that i want.

i just want to be with you every single minute and roll around in bed with you.

.Losing sleep.

two more weeks and bye bye SAE.(: gonna be really pressed on with the final recording which i will be recording my original(: no iwon't. wee.

how i wish i could be at different places at the same time. tied up with school, then there's soccer, then work at times, family,her and friends. haiyaa. leceh leh. but i just hope you'll always understand my reasons when i cant seeyou. i would grab any opportunity that has been cast upon me to seeyou. but its just school with the last minute things to do makes it kinda hard. it really killed me when i had to cancel meeting up with you. it just did.

and i can foresee that it will not be the last. with work soon to come. i got a feeling ill be busy more often. we justgot to really understand each other's situation and always cherish the moments when we are together. thats what i always believe. i know it'll be hard for you to get use to me being very busy but i just hope you will.but whatever it is ill always do whatever it takes to seeyou even for one moment.cause it beats then not seeing you at all. taaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

.no,i dont want to go.

shopping in kl was a bliss.pampered myself with 10 tops.(:
love it.

3 days felt like eternity.not seeing you was terrible. but then again that trip made things alot more clearer for us.i reckon that. dont you?

it sort of brightened our dimly lighted streets. it swept away all the leaves that were blocking our way.it made us stronger in a way.
i just had to seeyou immediately once i set foot in singapore and the moment i saw you all the tiredness from the trip went away.you give me energy(:
but the nightmare isnt over. just today got a word from my sister my national service enlistment has arrived. my heart sank. sank so deep its deeper then err. deeper then the deepest. it was heart wrenching. haiyaaaa. why cant it come much later. but howells. on the brightside the faster i finish it the better yeah? well baby. we gotta be strong. and surely we will prevail in this such pain in the ass obstacles. loveyou.

lets hold hands and go for a trip(: