.This brilliant dance.

i'll lead you to where we should go. but you have to find your steps.

i'll take your hand to take you to where we belong, but you have to know which hand is mine.

i'll be by your side to help you overcome your fears. but you have to find it in yourself first to be able to overcome it.

you need strength,courage,self confidence,motivation,pillar of strength,a net to catch you if you fall.

i can give you all that but only one thing i cant give you. the mental strength to stay focused, learn and adapt.

but i'll always be there to help you if you need me.i promise.even if i cant do anything to help.

.you're all that i need.

flutter i feel.
smiles.
laughs.
thats what you give.

kisses and hugs.
is what i love.

.Will you take me deeper now.

im scared i might get lost.
this jungle is so thick and dark i cant even see my fingers.
it scares me to pieces.
its not that i dont want to venture in this jungle.
with you especially.
but im just scared ill end up in a swamp.
ill take your hand if you take mine.
and together we will walk side by side and not worry bout time.
i want to fall for you.
but will you let me?
will this jungle be too dark for me to know why im falling?
i certainly hope its not.
i certainly hope the torch that i brought along will work.



i want to kiss you underneath the stars.

just now we were talkin about fate.
fate to me is the decisions that we make. and thus the decision will lead to fate.
its decision that we make that somehow we are fated to make.
but having fate is one thing but doing things that leads to fate leads is another.
i think it was fate that we met up again once more after ages last seeing you.and the decision leading to it was sheena deciding to bring you down to meet up with us.
things happen for a reason and somehow that is fate.
fate is a strong and subjective word but i simply love it.
if not for fate. i wont be here sitting down on my chair thinking of you whilst you are at home sleeping.

i want you here in my arms.
i want to feel your lips once more.
killing time is no more a problem
cause with you around, it feels so fast.


hope this would last.hope you feel the same way too.
hope you would say i loveyou too.

Questions can be anything. answers will only mean one thing.

.Cupids chokehold.

if i had to choose her over the sun
i'd be one nocturnal son of a gun

She's got a smile that would make the most senile
Annoying old man bite his tongue
I'm not done
She's got eyes comparable to sunrise
And it doesn't stop there
Man I swear
She's got porcelain skin of course she's a ten
And now she's even got her own song
But movin' on
She's got the cutest laugh I ever heard
And we can be on the phone for three hours
Not sayin' one word
And I would still cherish every moment
And when I start to build my future she's the main component
Call it dumb call it luck call it love or whatever you call it but
Everywhere I go I keep her picture in my wallet like here


simple yet so beautiful.

if that ain't love then i dont know what love is.


waaaaa.nice.
got a brand new phone!(: bye sally hello joan.hahaha.

i want to be awake and cherish every single moment of this.
this pureness, the simplicity of things.
sing her songs and put her to bed.
roll off the bed.
err.wait.thats not it.
its beautiful thats how i'd like to put it.simply pure.
THEN comes the bitch.
PROJECTS.
fucking swine.
it shall be commencing soon.
ergh.
go away. stay away from me projects. you are a disease carrier. you bring me tiredness, stress,fuck.fuck,fuck. well.look on the bright side johnny. you'll be ending school in about 2 months or so.hmm. you are so right. i am.weee. i got a job! becoming acid empire's temp soundman! hopefully ill get a permanent post with them.i'd simply love it.(:

wagawagawoo!

.Take me deeper now.

ahh. finally my head feels lighter. every part of me feels lighter.

THIS is how i should feel. this is what i want to feel.




my voice sounds cute apparently when im high.hahahahahaha. goddammit. that is so fuckin difficult to imagine and im not gonna.haha. such a scary thought.

i dont know if ive posted this before but im still gonna say it. someone told me last time im romantically clumsy yet it is nice. am i? and hows that like?

ask me more questions. tell me more bout you.make me nervous. make my heart pound faster.make me think all the time. i love all that. dont ever stop asking me questions. knowing someone takes 5 mins but understanding oneself takes an eternity.

think im falling deep.looking up i see people smile looking down at me. that smile on their face made me realise it is a good thing. and i feel the same way. but that smile on their faces gave me more assurance. this time round i want to fall deeper.

that mess has been somewhat cleared. but i feel it was a blessing in disguise. if not for the mess i sometimes wonder would we ever question ourselves. this concerns to everyone and to me most. i wonder would i ever think of what i wanted. it made me realise that somehow you mean something to me. something that i would never thought of. but dont get me wrong. im not trying to sound uncertain. i am certain. this is so blissful. me and you. sometimes the thing that you least expect to work out or happen can be the most beautiful thing.like the song says after all this while never thought i'd be here.

will you take me deeper now?

.Dry.

Wipe that tear of your eye i will for i will stay.

drunk.sleepy.goodnight.loveyou and everyone

.Don't go away.

there's alot of things to say
about the things gone in my mind.
so dont go away
say what you say.
say that you'll stay
forever and a day in the time of my life.
for i need more time.
yes i need more time
just to make things right.
damn my situation and the games i have to play
and the things gone in my mind.
i wanna be there when youre falling down
and i wanna be there when you hit the ground.
me and you whats going on.
dont go away
say what you say
say that you'll stay.
forever and a day in the time of my life
for i need more time
yes i need more time
just to make things right



i rightly believe so.somehow it fits me well.



will you stay? wait for everything to clear up.
and for me to sober down. im not like this.
things suppose to be so beautiful eventhough it is but more carefree.
not worrying about what people would say because they cant say anything.
so what if we are holding hands. it means nothing from the outside.but deep inside is only gonna matter to both of us.dont you thing so girl?

i hate it when i hear things bout me.
things that arent supposed to be said.
things that are not real.
surreal as you would like to put it.
surreal things have to ways.
good or bad.
good is fantastic.


eventhough i said friends matter to me most but you still matter to me somehow.
cause im not gonna let go such a beautiful thing such as this so easily.
im loving every single moment of this.

but you just have to toxicate this fairy tale like how things in the past has happened.you as being the other person.
cant you just let us be.
let us be free
and never worry
bout the things we are gonna do.
question your own insecurities and satisfy your own lack of self esteem, self confidence and inferiority. we cant do anything but watch.
we learn from our mistakes. its about time you learn too. dont ever blame on your lack of relationships for causing this mess. its never about that. its all about you being so immature, naive, gullible, oblivious and SELFISHNESS.

PERIOD

my brain has been really swamped with alot of things and i feel somehow im beginning to be really confused. i can just walk away from all this bullshit that you're creating and care for myself. why would i want to be bothered by all these that is niggling pain in my ear.



because i care.