. finally its over .

school's done.

celebrate.

got sick.

whoopeedoo.

the condition im in now maybe isnt helping our situation baby. im sorry if ive been over-sensitive and moody at times. its just i seek attention from you sometimes. and all i need is reassurance. i don't know if its bothering you but it does to me. we need to understand each other. thats all i think we need to do.

we don't need this pesky lil arguments to spoil each others mood cause i certainly dont like it.

the past week has been hell for me. late and sleepless nights. stress. datelines.

everytime when i get to seeyou is a blessing. it made my day. no matter how terrible it is.

and i wouldnt want that to change.

i know you've been having mood swings lately, but sometimes i get disappointed or hurt because you tend to say negative things. i can't help  but to swallow it. 

like i said, im different from the other guys you've dated. you've got to understand this part of me. eventhough i know you dont mean it. i'll still get hurt by it.

and i know you're different too. thats why up till now im still trying to understand every single detail of you.

remember last time i said in an entry that things are suppose to be  beautiful but a lil more carefree.

well it is now. maybe not that carefree because of my school. i hope you wont judge me from what you've seen the past month or so. im not usually like this. i want  to show you more. only if you let me.

i want to let you hear more.only if you let me. and i want the same back too.

sometimes when im disappointed or angry, i just can't find the words on how to tell you. at the same time i wouldnt want to because im afraid it might hurt you. hurting me alone i can take it but hurting you i can't. i still believe this story of us can be a much more beautiful one. we just need to find the right pen and book.

hopefully after reading this you'll understand me a lil bit more and hopefully when you call i can find the words to explain to you whatever you want to know. ill tell you the things that i dont like to avoid all this unnecessary tiffs.

the clouds above us is clearing up. so we shall dance in this balcony and NO i wont let go of you. not just yet. im still sticking to it.