. walks around in circles in my head .

its been long overdue this post.

a quick update for what has happened for the past few months.

nothing much.huhuhu. disgusted with myself on how i coped with the past major event that happened on the month of november. you know. the break up.when i read back those entries, i was aghast. ive always been the one telling my friends theres no need to fight for something that wants to go away for i believe in fate. but there i was moaning,whining, depressed,upset. for? a measly relationship that i realised wasnt that fruitful. the only thing that i could bring out from that event would be i learnt im not that strong headed as i thought i was. at that point of time i felt really vulnerable.goddammit im such a loser.

i guess i was just to obsessed with my concern of not being able to maintain a long relationship and that was where it got to me. 

was kinda embrassing but at least i realised it was a mistake and i put down an oath to try my best not to be such a loser next time.

ive always been an optimistic sonofabitch and i know i still am. this is where i need to learn. to learn to cope with all the changes in my life. i aint 16 no more. im already 20. thats the point of time in everyone's life where there will be tons of changes. such as on how you lead your life, socialising.

not to fret. i believe in myself that i will do just fine. in fact ill breeze through this transition seamlessly.

nowadays life's been good to me. met new people. just what  i needed. been kept busy with errands, vacations,soccer,friends.

met this girl and nowadays we're close. to keep things short on what i think of her, she is this gem just waiting to be unearth and polished to turn into a finshed product.i was really concerned with her problems. never have i met someone that had such difficulties and hard luck. hopefully ive done enough to help her through that rough patch. at that point of time told myself it will be such a shame if she stays like this because she deserves more. she deserves to be held in great esteem or affection, A GEM. 

people say always look to the future for when you keep looking back it will only bring you down. thats a good advice. but what i believe is you can never neglect what you have done in the past and be ignorant. that way you will never learn from your past wrongdoings and thus will not help you in the future. look back but dont dwell on it.

a succesfull person is someone that always picks himself up after failing no matter how bad it is and also going through a lot of obstacles in life is actually the most recommended path rather than going the easier way. its as good as running away form your troubles. with every obstacle you overcome, youll be stronger and wiser.

wahwah.mcm mana nya psychologist eh.hahaha.

but yeah. now that im not troubled by anything, im able to say all this and i love helping people out when they are in need because i know when i was in need they were there for me regardless when.

its imperative that i maintain this levelheadedness.

UBIN HERE I COME!WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

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