. whispering sweet nothings .

fasting month's here.fats please go away.

hmm.nothing's been going on. not much to excite too. works been on hold. got some shit going on there. too lazy to bother for now.

then there is my situation. always i can never run away from such. it pains for me to know that always the only thing i can blame is for myself.

people say i ought to make it about me more often then always bout her. well i agree to that but i think it should be about us. it never was huh?i've always been afraid of being unreasonable to you huns. thats why i seldom say things that might prevent you from doing things no matter how much it kills me. never have i been so lost.you will never know how much thought have i been putting in everything about this. us you me.everynight is pain stricken because its as if ive got alot in my mind. still i will just lie down on my bed and ask myself lots and lots of questions.maybe im just thinking too much. but i think you can take it all away by giving me answers and also giving me the chance to ask you and show you.

you know the other day when we spoked about the situation, at that point of time, i was just scared. fearing the worst. fearing things aren't in my hands anymore. waiting ive done for so many times. but always to no avail.my heart shrunk.

then there's that guy. i dunno what the heck is going on down there. but all i know is i hate it when you keep things from me. i just hate it. the more you keep things from me the more i will dig. the less you say the more i will think.who is this guy anyway? he just appeared from nowhere. and suddenly you both out on a date. i resent that you know. i think that is disrespectful of you to do so. not that you cant go out with your friends but on how you handled it. you were keeping me in the dark for way too long. i felt like screaming at you. i knew that guy somehow spelled trouble from the day that i found out he was pestering you to go clubbing with you. then pestering you to meet him or whatever not. i know more then you think huns. not that im trying to act smart here but i think i ought to be told more. i just dont want to make things worst. as if its not bad enough.

when i ask you who you're meeting or called you etc, dont ever say you're friend. please. i just dont like it.

i know you're past has been haunting you everyday. but i think its about time you leave it all behind and start afresh with me baby. because without that you're not giving me any chance of succeeding. there will always be a fallback for you and that leave me no chance.i know it was a tough past but hey, everyone got their demons and sins in the past but its how they moved one that made them a better person and i know you can do that too.

and lastly. i wouldnt want to pressure you on anything. but i know i am. its all because you left with me no choice. im dying in here you know that. wondering whats gonna happen tomorrow. 

im not gonna give up on you easily. cause i know you're worth the while. because you're my fuzzy wuzzy. hope you read this.