.disillusioned .

never have i fel very disappointed with my ownself. sometimes i wish if i could only turn back time and undo the wrong that i have done. things that i'm not proud of. things that people will despise me upon realisation. i really wish that was possible. i would give up everything to turn back time.

what have i done so far to make you proud?

am i what you pictured to grow up to be?

it kills me to know ive done lots of things that saddens you. but things have happened and there's no point in dwelling on it. nonetheless i sincerely apologise and vouch to do my very best to make you proud.

sorry ayah.i never meant to hurt you, to make you cry.thats the last thing i will ever want to do. i love you.