. it drains my enthusiasm .

its a life changing phase at this point of my life. as for now i take it on a day by day basis hoping the next day will be a good day. then looking forward to the next day hoping i get to see the outside world.

in all honesty, it hasn't been that bad but the feeling of "i might be doing guard duty on my book out day" is the worst feeling ever coming out tops compared to the sucky book in feeling.

on book out days, i feel so downright happy and have fun that sometimes i forgot that i am actually serving ns and have to book in on the sunday. all the time, i just wish that feeling lasts forever. being with babylove,having fun and laughing at random things is so blissful. sadly, that feeling fades on the day i am booking in.

now i have a major decision to make. should i or should i not go for ERS. The pay is attractive, i will be super fit but i will undergo 6 months of living hell. can someone help me sort this out please. at this point of time, i'm leaning more to not going for ERS but still im not too sure of that decision.

ns aside, im currently in contention of being in baby's band. weeeeeeeeeee. they gonna play lifehouse,jason mraz etc. woooooo. so shiok. somemore SHE will be in it. wah. best nya.but i might need to quit caravent which im currently considering. 

alamak. 2 more hours book in. sian