. There Goes My Hero .

hello people. so many things to update. 

everything is going on pretty well. nothing to complain about. its already been a week since the fasting month started. woho. was not entirely good though. had bowel problems. hahaha. didn't manage to shit. it sucked man. oh and my dear friend kamal seems to finally found a love. ahaha. hopefully it goes well for both of them particularly for him. its not that he's not a good boyfriend but he tends not to treat her the way she wants her to be treated. he always wants it his way if you know what i mean. maybe its because its been a long time since he last was in a steady relationship. hope he learns from the past. for what ever the previous girls did to him, his current flame is capable of doing much worst. im pretty sure of that.

well lets just put that aside. life was all colorful, breezy and happy but it went through a major roadblock. on the morning of september 5th 2008, i received news regarding my uncle. it broke my heart. even though i was lacking sleep, once i heard he passed away i knew i had to pay my last respects to my late uncle. he was always a man with limited words. he only spoke when the situation calls for it. but he has this aura. this respect from every single person from the family. not for just being the eldest but somehow something more than that. i never was very close with him but being my uncle i knew him well enough. Being a teacher was really a career made for him for as he could share his wisdom, knowledge and life experience with the younger generation. we called him " wak mok" because of his weight but ever since he was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer he was never the same. he started to be senile, lost tons of weight. but he was strong. he battled with cancer for as long as he could and he just had to go away as it was his fate to leave us. he will never be forgotten. allah loves him. he passed away on the month of ramadhan, his body was prayed by the people in the mosque and that is a feat that not many people is lucky enough to get. Last but not least, he died peacefully. 

it broke my heart to see all his four daughters now having their own family in distraught. i can never understand the pain and anguish that they had. losing your father, your pillar of strength and your utmost source of comfort. as i stood there watching them paying respects, i just broke down. i cannot imagine myself being in their shoes. i wouldn't want to. it made me realize how i take my parents for granted. they can just leave you anytime. from this day onward, i vow to give them all the love, respect and whatever they want that they deserve. they brought me up to the person i am and the least i can repay them back is by taking good care of them. they are the reason im here. if not for them im just another figment of ones imagination. i loveyou both. and to my late uncle may god forgive all your sins and allow you into the gates of heaven. AMIN.